In Your Mind

by Expanding Chaos

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released February 15, 1998

Written & produced by Markus Widegren & Anders Rudolfsson.

Engineered & mixed by Anders Rudolfsson at Mixtrofobi Inspelningsplatå in Östersund, Sweden, july-december 1997 & january 1998. Photos & design by Markus Widegren. Voice on track 13 by Anette Johnsson.

Copyright 1998.



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Expanding Chaos Sweden

Noise, music & words from an expanding chaos. Formed 1996 in Östersund, Sweden, but now geographically unbound.

Members: Anders Rudolfsson & Markus Widegren.

Collaborators: Anette Johnsson, Ellinor Kall, Björn Rudolfsson, Tomas Öberg, Rikard Dahlgren.
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Track Name: Reality Check
The rats fill the tunnels
Pipes and metalbars echo
Steaming airvents stench of vomits
Empty bottles lie broken to shreds

Junkies hide in old sewers
Trying to survive another night
Broken needles, poisoned blood
Another hooker raped and killed

Mistcloud, blue light, smoking fire
Vermin at the city dump
Another corpse wrapped in wastebags
Someone caught in shootout crossfire

A whole life wasted at a subway station
Crack pumped into shredded veins
Hallucinations, paranoia and overdose
An accident? Or pushed down to the rails
Track Name: Alice Insane
Where the dark shadows fear to walk
In the growing sunlight I stalk
Together with Alice, she's my friend
Oh; her misery will never end

Alice, I walk with fear of you
I don't know if you're insane too
But in my dreams - hand in hand with you
We walk through your own wonderland
Track Name: Departure
An angel walked upon the earth
To see what had been done
An aeon seemed to have passed
Since the dawn of time

He was eager to see the things
That the humans had achived
All the things that they'd done
To cherish love and life

Amazed he saw some things
That he could not belive
And some things the prophets
Never talked about

The state of the human mind
Had long since been changed
And all that was left now
Was a globe of dust

The angel sat down to cry
When he heard a voice
It sounded so familiar
When it gently said

I might be strange to you
But I am all that's left
A child that's growing fast
Into the eternal sea
Track Name: Now It's Dark
From torment to oblivion - how sweet to forget
How sad to not remember the summers warmth

From winter nothing good comes but cold
And everyone longs for summers warmth

From death there is no escape
No chance for a return to summers warmth

Now it's dark in our world
Now it's dark in our lifes
Hösten är sommarens requiem
Winter is here

Autumn days of death and colors
Winds mess around in dying trees
Snow is not far away, everything will freeze
Naked arms will brake under heavy weight of snow

I remember the joys of this summer
But now it's gone and all thats left is
Freezing water
Melting snow
Track Name: Creative Entity
The blinding sun of happiness
Finally setting behind the mountains
The twilight sky of crimson blood
Slowly drained by putrid rooks

The enlighting moon of comfort
Brilliant white above the horizon
The spawning earth of life and death
So blue and green amidst the stars

The spinning disc of expanding chaos
Rich complex of intrigous gods
The reaping singularity of nothing
Consuming matter, energy and order

The creative entity of the universe
The cathedrals travelling corridor
The reluctant heroine of hopeless tries
The divine godess of broken lies
Track Name: The One Who Sings
You start to wonder why I am so far away
You realize your wish today
Today you see how high this is
How far you have to go
I'm your friend in this - I'll watch over you
I'll give you wings - just realize
This is our heaven - this is our place
Here we will stay - don't walk away
We're pretty far up high - here pass the angels by
This distance cannot be shown in miles
So dance with us - we breed in chaos
We are the one who sings
Track Name: To The Forlorn
Come here my friends
Gather round me and listen

I am here to bless you
And sing to the forlorn

You're not so desolate
For noone has to die
All of you human beeings
Know how it is

The strength lies in your mind
Just imagine the things you want

Sing for me children, you are of me
I know you will not let me down
But now I must take farewell of you
And leave this place somewhere behind
Track Name: The Silverscaled Fish
The rain always fall from a grey cloudy sky
I've made a bouquet of cornflowers for you
I like to walk alone in the rain with my tears
I could not find the bluebells you asked me for
As the river seek the ocean I want to reach my mind
I want to help you but it is so very hard
It's such a relif to cry and be sad when we're mourning
I wish you knew I was here to take care of you

Far from here I know there is a well full of water
The flowers are symbols of my love for you
There is one big fish constantly breaking the surface
As the water is your subconscious inner emotions
It must be made of metal or something that shines
That is you as you should be if you were okey
Oh, I wish I was a friend of that silverscaled fish
But you are my friend and I won't let you drown
Track Name: Shivers
Sometimes a radiant eye stares at me
Accusing me for all kind of things
And I know I'm not guilty
But I can't explain how it really is

Where is hope?
Hope lay in dreams they say
But I've just awakened

I've lost track of reality now
Track Name: Important Things
Concept and consequence
Seldom at the sane time
Spreading seeds in mind
Thats no reapers ground

For a while I behaved
Through the cyanid color
Someone knew the same
There is no single truth

The things we do at home
The praise to great, to loud
For foolishness the only way
Fateless with a faithless mind

Control and carnivour
Inhale the cardboard prey
There must be somone
That circle above the vultures
Track Name: Escape
I can't stand this any more
No more dreams or fantasies
No escape to insanity
And no more songs of death

I know the world's an evil place
But there is also good
And reality can be just fine
If we've got the right friends

And I know some people
That helps me to survive
Sometimes we are happy
And sometimes we are sad

But I know they are for real
Though I also know one day
All of them will be gone
And I'll be alone again

Then I'll start to dream
And escape this reality
Cause in my other world
She'll be there with me
Track Name: Broken
Exclude me from this party
This is not where I belong
I'm not supposed to be here
Wrap me in plastic and tape
Throw me into the river
And watch me float away

It is good to feel the water
Taking so good care of me
Rocking me to oblivion
Eradicating my antichaos
You know why we're here
Remembrance is our mission

I like the prospect of beeing immortal,
but how could we achive that when we're dead
Could it be possible to live in a machine,
or could we reach out to another world?
And could you tell me please where are we going
I really don't want to die here all alone

I have comitted some sins
But none of the deadly ones
Well, just a few, or maybe all
My freedom is more worth
Than any of your parties
And you know that is true

So erase me like you wish
Throw away all that I was
Engage another contestant
Wrap me in plastic and tape
Throw me into the river
And watch me float away
Track Name: My Midnight Guest
the stars are always up there
my mind is always in here

As darkness embrace me
The mind slips away
To places somewhere
In the corners of itself

There it finds strange thoughts
Noone knew was there
And it plays with them
To see if something will brake

the stars are always up there
my mind is always in here

And as I try to sleep
Something bugs my mind
It scratches all over me
As I twist and turn in my bed

It's almost as if someone
Is waiting to watch me
In pain I feel the presence
But cannot make it go away

the stars are always up there
my mind is always in here
Track Name: Farewell
My friend is going
but I'm standing still
I met her in a store
I said hi she said goodbye

The summer is closing in
and then she'll be gone
I don't know why
but I wish that I could

Follow her, follow her, follow her home
How I wish I could follow her home